Worlds Collide...

Hey.
I haven't been on this blog in a very long time! My friend Veronica has a blog on blogspot.com and she suggested that I start to blog again. To tell you the truth I've kind of missed it. Ever since dance this year ended I have been bottling up my emotions, I need a new outlet. I'm back!
Ive been kind of a muddle of things lately. My best friend has come back for the summer before she moves to Ottawa. It was two years since I last saw her; I missed her so much! Sadly, she is leaving again in 12 days. I'm not sure how I'll get used to being without her again. It'll be super hard.

It's 3:08 am right now. I think I have insomnia; I can't sleep a wink. I hate getting into bed and feeling tired and just laying there for hours on end. My mind just doesn't want to rest. It's going everywhere, anywhere it can. It is quite annoying. My body is tired but my head is busy...I suppose there are a lot of things to think about.
I dont really know who I am anymore. Im sick of being alone but I want to find out who I am...and I dont know how to do that. Its scary...not knowing what I'm supposed to do in this life. See, I dont like to think about the future. Not really. I mean, making plans for the week is one thing but planning out your life is another and frankly, it scares the shit out of me. I dont know what I want to do. I'm sick of everyone pushing me to make decisions about my life when I dont have a clue.
The one thing I want to do more than anything else is to travel part of the world. I want to see and experience different things. I want to meet new people. I want to learn the world from different perspectives. I want to find out how different cultures live. I would love to go to Europe, Asia, Australia, even parts of the US. Anywhere. I haven't travelled much in my life so far. Ive been to a few different places in Canada, North Dakota, and Mexico, and that's about it.
I just want to get out of here. I love most of the people I am always around, but that's just the problem. I'm ALWAYS around the same people. I want to get out of this city and see different places! I want to meet new people and try new things. I might be scared to look into the future, but the one thing that gives me comfort is that I know I am definitely not alone in this world, I know there are millions of people out there who feel the exact same way I do. Even though they may not speak english, I may not understand them but they are out there...and one day I'll see the world the way they see it.
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